Loss and Love

This time of year is always bittersweet for me. While I get excited to celebrate another year of life (my birthday!!) I am also always reminded of this time 5 years ago.

I remember I was in Ohio visiting family with my 6 little ones in tow. My husband at the time was in a mental hospital (that’s a story for another day). I didn’t sleep well the night before, and I was awoken fairly early with a call from my aunt. She was calling to let me know that my other aunt had passed away in the middle of the night. I was totally in shock. How could this be? I had just talked to her a few days earlier. She was just fine and healthy, she had just celebrated her birthday too.

My aunt wasn’t just an aunt to me, she was more like a mom to me. We talked regularly and she helped me get through some pretty difficult times. She was a lady filled with love, kindness, and wisdom. I always felt better after talking to her, or better yet spending time with her. As I got older I was able to grow closer to her, she always knew the right things to say and how to help me in various situations.

When she passed away I had no idea I would be facing some of the most heartbreaking trials in my entire life. Just when I needed her she all of a sudden wasn’t there anymore. When I felt more alone than I had ever felt the person I would turn too was gone.

It’s been 5 years since she was taken home to Heaven, and I still miss her so much. I am grateful for the relationship I was able to have with her. I’m grateful for the wonderful person she was and the great example of love and strength she was throughout her life.

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