People frequently ask me how or what helped me change my life so drastically from how I grew up. First off, I know without a shadow of a doubt I did not do it alone. I know it was through the grace and help of a loving Father in Heaven.
Recently I was reading a book entitled Not My Will, But Thine by Neal A. Maxwell. In it he says, “… adverse environmental experiences need not be automatically perpetuated. It is possible to break the chain of events by saying, ‘Let it stop with me!'”
This statement right here perfectly echos my thinking. When I became pregnant at a young age I knew I wanted something different for the little life I was going to bring into the world. I knew I wanted it to stop with me because I wanted to make sure no other child would suffer the way I did.
After I made this pledge to myself I never looked back. It stopped right there with me. None of my children have ever had to know what it was like to live with an alcoholic or drug addict. They never have to worry about where I am at night, or when I’ll be home. They have never had to deal with that kind of instability or destructive home environment.
I am not saying it was always easy, because it wasn’t. Not having a steady role model to know how to pattern my life after has been a challenge. I have learned however that “God can heal us…”, and I am ever so grateful for that. I am thankful that it stopped with me. I am thankful for a loving Heavenly Father that helped my efforts and has been with me every step of the way.