Normal, what does that even mean? It seems that so many of us are trying to attain this level of normalcy in one way or another. So what defines normal? I just have no idea! In my world I secretly admire those individuals that are completely and totally themselves. For me I lack the self-confidence to be me with no reserves.So why the hold up? What are these reservations about?
I can only speak from my point of view of course. I suffer from some deep seated insecurities, and I fear rejection. There it is – all on the line! Why is this you may ask… Well I’m sure it goes back to my childhood and all that. When I was a kid normal was a mom and dad happily married, raising their kids together, and going on vacations during the summer break. Just rainbows and sunshine everyday for all those “normal” people. I know now this isn’t reality for most people.
I am hoping that as I get older these feelings will resolve themselves. I remind myself frequently that it really doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things. I think the truly important thing is how do we measure up to Heavenly Father. I have been trying to align my thinking to how am I doing as a daughter of God. When we change our line of thinking to this I think we can attain a normalcy that will suit us just perfectly.
In the end I think that normal is just different for each of us. Finding what that is, and being comfortable with ourselves, is a wonderful place to be. What’s your normal?